Hope

Wow, I don't know where to start.

My life is crazy, upside down.

I'm waiting for things to happen

I'm trying to get my feet back on the ground,

I'm trying to find the ground actually.

I'm tired of my life

But I still love it.

I love and miss people

I wish others would disappear off the face of the earth.

I want to scream

I want to laugh

I want to cry

I want to run away.

I wish the computer was more like my Blackberry

But I want my Blackberry to be different.

My tongue is sharp,

Because I am upset.

I feel lonely

But I'm surrounded by people.

I love school

But I hate the work.

I have things to do

But they never get done.

I feel like promises are empty.

I'm confused, alone, afraid, frustrated and just plain angry.

All.the.time.

But in the midst of this pain and loneliness, there is a glimmer of Hope. Hope starts with a gentle tapping on the door to my heart, then a knocking, the a full out banging, then it tries to open the door, realizes it's locked, and bashes it down to reveal itself and bring me out of the dark little corner of self pity once again. And there is Hope.

I need to answer the door to Hope once more.

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

Romans 8:28

~Keren

Matthew 5:13-16

'You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt has become tasteless, how will it be made salty again? It is good for nothing any more, except to be thrown out and trampled under foot by men. You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do men light a lamp and put it under the peck measure, but on a lampstand; and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.' Matthew 5:13-16

This was a passage I had for English today, one of my assignments was to find out some info about salt and light. We found something online, not really what the assignment called for, but for me it gave the scripture a whole new meaning! I wanted to share it all with you. Here it is.

"It is reality, not arrogance, to say that we, who are eternally joined to the King of the universe, are special and radically different from all others. For God has called us His ambassadors. We represent His kingdom here on earth. As salt and light profoundly alter the taste and appearance of everything they contact, so God's life in and through us makes a difference in every life we touch.

God has always sought intimate friendship with His people. He wants us to seek, know and love Him; for only then can He fill our lives with the abundance of riches He longs to share with us. This is the message He wants us to communicate to others.

This message may be spoken, but primarily it must be lived. Words that tell others about Jesus become stale and empty if His life is not seen in us. We may teach the significance and function of salt and light, but there is no credibility unless we indeed are salt and light. This happens, not primarily by doing, but by believing we are who He says we are: His children, friends and fellow workers sent into the world to be salt and light by the power of His Spirit.

This is our choice: Will we live according to the old pattern as if no transformation occurred? Or will we believe what He says about us and trust that He who lives In us will make us effective as salt and light in this world - so that He (not we) be known and glorified."

Dear Father,

I want Your light to shine through me, I want to show rather than tell people what You have done for me, and what You can do for them too. Please show me how to be a light for You.

~Keren